Swan is just an Ugly Duckling

We have all heard about the Ugly Ducking turning into a Swan theory. What about something that’s different from that? [I evolved from the ugly duckling to the whale if you look at my weight these days]

The Swan is nothing but an Ugly Ducking within.

We look at all the beautiful, rich, confident, successful, [not necessarily they are all one person with all these qualities] and similar adjective people and think how they must be living life without any of the insecurities that we live with. That’s totally untrue. They live with bigger insecurities and the worst part is that they probably do not even get to show it because they have to live up to a certain image.

You would think a model has a complex about her body as compared to us mere mortals, or a jock feels timid around the geek, the boss feels threatened by his understudy, or that a multiple time champion has no belief in his abilities but feels that he just got lucky on all those occasions. These people live with complexes and insecurities, and to project that they don’t they overdo the image projection part.

So you will see that they may appear extremely snobbish, or overtly aggressive, or over adjusting, or awfully rude. Some will not miss an opportunity to put you down, make fun of you all the time, ridicule your tastes and humiliate you in public. You just have to see through this and know where the insecurity lies. These people are a nuisance to others but they tend to be a torment to themselves.

Ugliness is nothing but feeling alone against smiling enemies. It’s the double whammy of misfortune to yourself and good fortune to others. So the next time you encounter one of those beautiful swans you admire, do not forget that they are nothing but the ugly duckling wearing an attractive outer layer.

Beauty my friend is only skin deep, but ugliness goes down to the very bone.

Facebook Realizations - 5 no longer

I did a couple of these Facebook quiz’s on how well do you know… and the results were disastrous. The worst part is it was for my lil cousins. Just made me realized that I have not been spending enough time with them and there is so much about them I do not know. They have grown up and I still remember them as my little cousins.

Questions like how old was I when I went out on my first date and how many boyfriends did I have so far made me uneasy for some reason and that’s when I realized that my lil sisters are not 5 years old anymore. They are grown up teenagers and they are leading normal teenage lives. I didn’t know how many times they had travelled abroad and that KFC seemed more important than spending time with family.

I always thought that I probably was reasonably close to them and this has been an eye opener. I promise myself that I shall take more time out on my next trip home to spend some more time with them.

[And to think I thought their favorite childhood game was – Doctor Doctor help us…]

Updates

Swamped with work, presentations, procedure manuals, costing, etc etc. looking forward to my mid week soccer game and then a fun weekend. Last weekend it was fun meeting Susie for dinner and giving her gyaan on the places to visit in Turkey when she heads there next weekend. Have fun Susie.

Football fridaze are now more fun because of a smaller group and closer friends. Its less competitive, more fun and it’s a better surface. A close ally’s birthday is coming up and she has not yet told me what she wants a birthday gift. WOMEN!

Reading Olivers Story by Erich Segal and its about this guy who loses the love of his life and walks around like a zombie etc etc. Just cannot seem to relate to the character because I am one who always bounces back strong and happier. Your happiness should always come from within you and not from out and that makes you a happier person always.

I want to take a trip with family somewhere when they approve my leave and I can get my mind of all the pending things at work.

Willy Models for Zurich

Willy gets a feature in an ad for Zurich. Very proud of you bro, very proud of you.

Thampu Engaged

Thampu and her fiance are now engaged [in a battle must I add?] and I am so happy. After Durga and Chom she is the first to plan to settle down and here is looking forward to some cute little mallus. [but only after the wedding i hope]

love you Thampu. Congrats

Listen Carefully Next Time

This was overheard after a robbery went wrong and the one thief was caught with the safe in his hand running with his partner and the guard was behind him with his pants at his ankles.

"No, you idiot. You got it all mixed up. I said tie up the GUARD and blow the SAFE!"

[I wasn't present but I heard this one]

Casabianca

I read an evaluation of Casabianca written by one of my closest friends and she has taken a very philosophical view to the whole poem and has dissected it and related it to life. Her view as someone slightly younger to me appealed nonetheless, and she is a very talented writer. So I am not too sure if I should credit her for her views or for her writing. I credit her for the effort though, because this girl is going places.

THE POEM
Young Casabianca, a boy about thirteen years old, son of the admiral of the Orient, remained at his post (in the Battle of the Nile), after the ship had taken fire, and all the guns had been abandoned; and perished in the explosion of the vessel, when the flames had reached the powder.

TRIVIA
I recited this poem while I was grade 3 at the inter house recitation competition.

VIEW
The same poem made sense to me then in such a different way as it does now. But the one things that remains the same is that I always looked as myself as the boy in the poem. I considered myself fairly obedient and very loyal to my causes be it football or green house [that’s the name of the house, not the green house effect thingy]. Now I find myself fiercely loyal to family and yet at the same time living life on my own terms and condition however anti society or anti establishment that may seem.

The feeling of destruction is one that grips me when I do read this parody. Burning, wreck, dead, flame, booming, despair, wreathing, fragments – they all convey the carnage that took place and yet it does not seem to refer to the environment but more to what happened to that young lad and all that went through his mind as he stood atop the deck.

Depending on what you are going through in life, this poem will make sense to you within that context. If you do get the time, please do read the poem.

Susheel Returns

Sush is in town and am looking forward to a good weekend with him and the other chaps. Jokes, pulling each others legs, office humor, bitching [yes we do that too], taking a dig at wives and the works make up for a day to look forward to. Add to that, the fact that I shall probably have two gorgeous women as my dates for the day ist likely to be a day to remember.

I better remember to take my cam along.[Its for the women not for myself.]